Beautiful Chaos

“I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.”

― Lisa Kleypas, Blue-Eyed Devil


oh my beautiful chaos, how i love and hate you at the same time. you make me, while you destroy me. your beauty is so lethal, that i cant discard you nor can i live with you.

A dark corner of me enjoys you

thought for now!

i miss the lips.. the touch..that i have never felt.. but its undeniable..
the kiss that is waiting to happen
the love that will engulf me.. i await it..
how can i deny something so strong.. that convulses my very soul..
urging it to accept its acceptance
to deny my dream its existence.. powerless to denial

Believe in Magic?

Magic .. . should i believe in it? ..  I dont know.. but a inner core part of me keeps shouting  to believe, to not give up.. whats the right thing to do..

i feel it in me.. i feel you..
where are you.. its time for us. .  .
 withouth any delay..
come to me..
no matter how dreamy, silly it sounds..
 its YOU..
 i wait for forever!!!!

everywhere i walk.. i look for you.. my thought, my eyes, my heart.. yearnings and searches for you. . .
i believe in magic.. i believe in miracle.. i believe.. in you..
there will come a day when you will be a part of me and my dreams.. in reality . . . I will wait for it . .  never will I give up on us! yet maybe  unknown to us . .  forever is what I believe  is destined for us!
you are what my dreams are made of. . . and i know it  . .  its YOU! I perish for! unfathomable it might be to understand us.. my soul recognizes you . .
two incomplete souls . . . complete! as imperfect as I am . .  you recognize me with my imperfections. .  dragging out my imperfections to perfections in par with ours!

this moment, my every pulse beats just for you . .  corny to the world. . . but to me . . my salvation. .

save me from the trivialities of life. .  only you can bring me back to me. . .

create new pieces of my lost soul, to give me my existence in full . .

the whole world might perish . .  but I will wait for you  . . or I rather die waiting for you.

you are all I believe, I wait for, I fight for.. with no regrets . ..

i have never felt so inperfectly complete before . .
YOU i feel. .  YOU i feel in my senses, my thoughts . . my dreams, my visions. . .
only thought that brings me back to life after my slumber of life. . .

i can feel you . . it is too powerful to resist, no matter how foolish i look . . you are too strong to let go!

ok fine! maybe i am dreamer, but answer me, why do i have these unknown yearnings.. the cravings..
i am talking to the bright moon outside my window.. and i feel like the moon is shining just for me.. silly it might be... but i believe it..

i can feel you.. you kiss, your, lingering around me.. haunting me for eternity. . how can i possibly discard these feelings i feel. . .

i feel you next to me when i lie.. you are my unknown, dreamy ghost..killing and twisting my insecurities at the same time giving life to me. .

only god stands witness to my misery and gloom..without you i am just a dust being blown around . .
come save me.. unfool me..