Random Fascinations!!

Lights of all shapes and sizes
Wine glasses
Whiskey glasses
Snow
Rain
Leaves
Moon
Stars
Bubble blower
Old books
Listening to stories
Vampires and Werewolves
Bonsai
Clear water bodies
Tattoos
Biriyani
Ice cream in cold weather
Wrestling
Old couples
Ice skating
Anklets
White piano
Old buildings
Ruins
Museums
Art
Rowing
Breeze
Black
Blue
Red
White
Gray
Gold
Diamonds
Feet
Messy hair
Candles
Luxury
Indulgence
Charity
Listening
Gramophone

Full moon tonight

Moon - I relate to you. I see me in you. You inspire me. You motivate me. The way you shine, even when you are hidden by the clouds; when you do come out, oh how you shine oh-so beautiful, the kind of beauty only you can bring out even during the darkest hours. And the best of all you spread your beauty. The way you make everything around you look so beautiful, even the clouds that hid you, can shine their beauty only through you. That amazes me. It mesmerizes me. I find myself in you, every time that I am lost, I find myself when I feel you, when I feel your radiance. I am found the moment you touch me. I can just lie under you forever, and never feel drained. That for me is my little moment of magic.

Thoughts 27.07.2015

Today as a nation we mourn the loss of a great person. Just imagining, even though we don’t know him personally nor even related to him, nevertheless we do. Because we are humans. We are programmed to feel the loss. We feel.

How destroyed would someone be, if they lost their father/mother, brother/sister, uncle/aunt, best friend/lover, etc… With no goodbye nothing. They left home and never came back. Can human emotion handle that something that you were not prepared for?

And there are those, who go on taking lives, in the name of religion, beliefs, blah blah, etc. Have they really felt loss ? Because when they know the meaning of losing a life, how can they take a life (or lives)?

Dr. Kalam was a muslim, but thats not what crosses our minds when we think of him. We see him as a person, as a genius, wonderful human being who has contributed his part to the development of our nation. 

So, why are we united and separated? why can’t we just be united as humans?!?! Isn’t humanity our most basic nature . .  why do we go against it?

Do we lose anything from being just human?

i love you because i cannot not love you

from an ordinary girl who has no idea what she is writing about .. most likely a silly fucked up wannabe dreamer !



Love ..
a creamy word! for all . . .

Is it the tingly butterfly in your tummy feel?
or is it i-will-die-for-you baby feel?

as much as cheesy the word Love sounds, it does have a quite an out-of-the-world ring to it .. .

Love for me,  completely my view of it is:

self love
falling a sleep and waking up with a silly grin
everything looking beautiful
momentary breathing disorder
any bad day event is negligible!
fascination with imperfections
and all that . . .

thats all the shiny glittery part of it. what is there beyond all the happy-sappy?

Faith.. no-matter-what-kill-me kind of it and also instinctive ;)
i see you inside out, i see all your fucked-up 250, 000 shades of grey and still can't help adoring every inch of it. Your imperfections breeds me in a way nothing else does
the way you make everything seem alright.

making every inch every atom of my body tingle in spite of being all wrong.
Loving you makes me want nothing.
Reality seems way better than dreaming.

More like 'I love my Reality'-kind of feel

how can i explain it!!!!

i don't know if you are real or not, but you already make me mindless with thoughts of you..
this obsession with you never goes away. the thin whatever line between reality and the other is translucent. i don't know if its a good thing or not - all this blind faith.

i can't give up! i know, i feel it!
i don't know..
even if i don't really understand anything, this unshakable feeling is unavoidable.. quite weird!


this supposed to be unexplainable feeling.

why do i believe in something like that.. sounds so absurd!

my fucked-up terrorist of an heart feels totally against all my whatever-hope

is that even normal, that i feel oh-so strong about all this, even when i have no real proof, except my loud instincts crying out to. .

Beautiful Chaos

“I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.”

― Lisa Kleypas, Blue-Eyed Devil


oh my beautiful chaos, how i love and hate you at the same time. you make me, while you destroy me. your beauty is so lethal, that i cant discard you nor can i live with you.

A dark corner of me enjoys you

thought for now!

i miss the lips.. the touch..that i have never felt.. but its undeniable..
the kiss that is waiting to happen
the love that will engulf me.. i await it..
how can i deny something so strong.. that convulses my very soul..
urging it to accept its acceptance
to deny my dream its existence.. powerless to denial

Believe in Magic?

Magic .. . should i believe in it? ..  I dont know.. but a inner core part of me keeps shouting  to believe, to not give up.. whats the right thing to do..

i feel it in me.. i feel you..
where are you.. its time for us. .  .
 withouth any delay..
come to me..
no matter how dreamy, silly it sounds..
 its YOU..
 i wait for forever!!!!

everywhere i walk.. i look for you.. my thought, my eyes, my heart.. yearnings and searches for you. . .
i believe in magic.. i believe in miracle.. i believe.. in you..
there will come a day when you will be a part of me and my dreams.. in reality . . . I will wait for it . .  never will I give up on us! yet maybe  unknown to us . .  forever is what I believe  is destined for us!
you are what my dreams are made of. . . and i know it  . .  its YOU! I perish for! unfathomable it might be to understand us.. my soul recognizes you . .
two incomplete souls . . . complete! as imperfect as I am . .  you recognize me with my imperfections. .  dragging out my imperfections to perfections in par with ours!

this moment, my every pulse beats just for you . .  corny to the world. . . but to me . . my salvation. .

save me from the trivialities of life. .  only you can bring me back to me. . .

create new pieces of my lost soul, to give me my existence in full . .

the whole world might perish . .  but I will wait for you  . . or I rather die waiting for you.

you are all I believe, I wait for, I fight for.. with no regrets . ..

i have never felt so inperfectly complete before . .
YOU i feel. .  YOU i feel in my senses, my thoughts . . my dreams, my visions. . .
only thought that brings me back to life after my slumber of life. . .

i can feel you . . it is too powerful to resist, no matter how foolish i look . . you are too strong to let go!

ok fine! maybe i am dreamer, but answer me, why do i have these unknown yearnings.. the cravings..
i am talking to the bright moon outside my window.. and i feel like the moon is shining just for me.. silly it might be... but i believe it..

i can feel you.. you kiss, your, lingering around me.. haunting me for eternity. . how can i possibly discard these feelings i feel. . .

i feel you next to me when i lie.. you are my unknown, dreamy ghost..killing and twisting my insecurities at the same time giving life to me. .

only god stands witness to my misery and gloom..without you i am just a dust being blown around . .
come save me.. unfool me..